We were able to celebrate two Easters with our little baby boy. I wish it could have been three. Easter and Jace's birthday are the two celebrations that we only celebrated twice during his life. All the other holidays we were able to celebrate three times together. Easter Sunday was bittersweet for me. I kept trying to keep my mind from imaging what they day should have been like if Jace and Sheldon were alive. I tried to focus on the Savior and what Easter really represents. Without our Savior I would not be able to see them again. Knowing that did not make the day any easier, but did give me comfort. I went and found the pictures we took from our two Easters together and that made me happy. Thinking about what could have been is to difficult to deal with.
Jace's 1st Easter-9 Months Old
We were living in our house in Forest Grove, Oregon. We bought Jace a new church outfit and his grandma and grandpa bought him some fun new toys. My parents were visiting us and we went to church, we had a nice Sunday dinner, and we had fun enjoying our Easter gifts and candy. Sheldon and I gave Jace a basket with some new shoes and socks and empty Easter eggs since he was too small to eat any chocolate or candy. Jace loved playing with his basket and his eggs. I also took Jace to get his picture taken in his new church outfit for Easter the week before. I remember I was sad I couldn't find his black church socks that day, so we made due with navy blue ones. I remember I was upset about that, but now it's just a fun memory.
It looks like he had just eaten some carrot baby food since his face was orange. That carrot baby food always stained everything, but it was his favorite.
We had fun watching him play on his new push toy. We were excited that he could sit on it all by himself.
I think this picture is what prompted his first hair cut. :)
Jace's Second Easter-22 Months Old
We were living in Lake Havasu City at the time because Sheldon was doing an optometry rotation at Eyes of Arizona. The yard in our rental house was just rocks, like most yards in the desert. We colored Easter eggs the night before and Easter morning we hid eggs for Jace while he was sleeping. We woke him up and had so much fun watching him find his eggs. Sheldon walked around with Jace and held his bag for him. As soon as Jace found all his eggs he said, "Again!" We re-hid the empty eggs everyday for about a week after Easter and Jace found them again and again. I bought Jace a new Easter outfit and we went to church that day as well. I also had Jace's picture taken with his new Easter outfit. I am so grateful I did that.
Jace decided he would rather put the stickers on his body than the Easter eggs.
He was pretty mad about putting on his church clothes. He pouted on the floor and refused to let me take his picture. I am glad we got one family shot though.
Easter Without Them
My heat is broken. I miss them so much. This Easter I decided to make a small Easter basket in honor of Jace and Sheldon. I put m&m's in each egg, that was Jace's favorite, and I put a scripture or quote that has helped me through this past month. I opened one today and this was the scripture I put in that egg. "And thus God breaketh the bands of death, having gained the victory
over death; giving the Son power to make intercession for the children of men." Mosiah 15:8 (From the Book of Mormon). In the picture below, the little basket I made is next to Jace's pillow pet and some throw pillows I sewed. We always had Jace's pillow pet in our living room for him to put his head on when he watched a show. Jace probably threw those throw pillows on the floor dozens of times and I would always tell him not to do it. It makes me laugh now. At the time I didn't think it was too funny. I am glad that I have that memory when I look at those pillows. Happy Easter Sheldon and Jace. I love you and miss you.

